Back when I was mad at God,
I rattled around the gloomy, tattered world
Dry as an old crust and
Dangerous as a dropped pin.
I ate alone
I slept alone
I stole brief pleasures alone.
Strange, unnamed animals came to me,
And I named them all alone.
I kept waiting for Him to slip up again
Or maybe I was expecting to catch it
For accusing Him
(Though, really, it was all His fault.
Who does He think He is?
I was perfectly willing to forgive Him
If He would just admit it
And say He was sorry.)
I slept and had unnatural dreams.
I dreamed of a dark chasm into which one could fall and never reach bottom forever and ever, world without end, amen.
She came when I awoke, a little stiff on one side.
In her hair were sunlight and laughter.
Her merriment unfurrowed my brow.
I desired her pixie ears, her strong chin, her lithe limbs, her supple skin
I desired her infectious joy.
I desired her.
We fell into step.
The day got brighter.
The road got straighter.
The air got lighter,
And I gingerly began to trust Him again.